Monster

Salam,

Today my post is on monster....its not on what is monster, what they do etc.  but on how i turn into monster yesterday.

It all because of my dearie Hana Marisa.  we were having good time yesterday, as i was on leave to take care of her as my mum is away.  we were doing her favourite, PAINTING!!!.i had finished all the house work. I was so so happy coz finally its the a day for me n hana to spend some quality time.  we were painting a boat n suddenly i remembered about my curry suppose to boil like 1n hour ago...but i did not smell anything....so i went to check my fish curry....it was less than 5 mins...when i return, i saw the living hall floor was full of hana's 10 finger print...till the kitchen..further more she was happily counting 1-10 n smiling and telling me...she had so much funnnnnnnnnnnn...OMG....i saw the floor was chop with her finger....including the TV and her lips and face as well...when i asked...she said..its make up!!!! OMG, i felt so so angry...n started to scold her...n she was like "ma..i was just painting" ...lagilah mak marah!!!!adoiiiiiii....i started to pukul her and she cried a lot.....

Later, when she was asleep, ...OMG...what have i done....she is just a baby....baru 3 tahun....rasa bersalah sangat....i felt so so horrible....that was the only time me n her alone after such a long time.....yet i had ruined it.....Hana just love painting...everyday she will ask ..ma can i paint...such alovely girl...but horrible mum!

I saw her confuse eye.  How come she is alllowed at school to do that. I guess i failed to tell her that what can and what cant be done...i'm sorry dear!

She was so sad...and later at night i told her why i pukul her..n she said sorry coz being naughty....OMG...i felt worst at that moment.