Salam....hi...
Its been a while since i updated my blog....initially the blog created because it is part of the assignment for my class...however i always wanted to write....either academic or non academic via blog or others....but guess via blog is the best at the moment :).
Wow....many things happened past few months....me getting pregnant, moving to new house and my brothers wedding.....if i looked back things had happen...wooowwwww...how do i manage all those.....obviously all of those effected me a loooooottttttttttttt......all the 3 major things happened in my life at the same time!!!
2nd Pregnancy
Am 27th week now.....had bleeding and waiting to be confirm if its Plasenta Previa.....this pregnancy is very though....not just because of numbers of visits to the Gynae but also because of the emotional rollercoaster that i went through.
life have been very hard and am still regaining my strenght and energy to get my life back. People say u have to sacrifice something to get another....but till when u need to sacrifice....do we need to sacrifice everything just because we want that "one" thing? is that sacrifices meaningful? remember, people also says becareful of what you wish for...so bear in mind...sometimes ...we want something in life so much that we neglect or take for granted other things.....when u r loosing 'that', u'll know how much u need 'that'.
Luckily my parents were my side....however, its my life...so i shud control it. Though i know they want to be there, help me, support me....yet deep in my heart i feel that...they are part of the cause of the problem.....so i decided to take charge of everything. Yes, i do notice they are broken and wanted to help me...but when they are closer, i feel am more tense and more anger. I know i shud not put the blame on them.... yet....they are part of the cause.....
Ok enough of this blaming...i want to get myself out of this mess n be free. anyways...grass are greener on the other side!!
Moving Out to New House
Yeay!!! finally am at my own home...HOME SWEET HOME...my own space....i rule my own space....no one can enter into my space....FINALLY .ITS MY OWN SPACE WORLD. Alhamdulillah :)
ALhamdulillah....after almost 4 years of struggle ....deciding...etc...we moved to our own house....it still in mess ...but its okay...coz its my own space...am not bother about anybody who complains my house is messy, smelly, unorganize....yes...am not bother at all....hey its my house...why u shud bother ....so shut up and get a life!! Hahhaha....kejam tak??
Our sweet home....have lots more to do....now its the basic thing...really basic...even there's no mirror in our bathroom....have to buy one....sian my other half...have to shave using IPAD.....so creative kan....i just notice that...i can live without a mirror.....yes....sometimes...i tak tgk myself in mirror in days....guess thats my self confidence...hahhaha..perasan ;)
My brothers wedding
Alhamdulilah, finally my bro kahwin....though am the only sister for him....i did not involve much into the preparation till the last minute.....itu pun orang kata i macam macam....well again am not bother anything people say....
Sometimes, i envy with them....pi mana2 pun...together2....even from their room to living room....like they have secret code....not like me....alone everywhere ....sometimes....i feel....i am alone....bz with my things and my other half with his....we r just not together....:(
ANyway, i wish my bro and SIL will have happy married life and success in whatever they do. InsyaAllah.
ok.bye
